Tati

Shame

I feel like my whole life and identity is a joke, except Im the only one that can’t find the humor in it.
The only thing that gets through to me is the embarrassment and solidification of my choice to not do anything out of my comfort zone ever. Because even inside my comfort zone, I’m embarrassed of myself. Of my body and my voice and how I function. I’m just so embarrassed in front of no one but myself.

I don’t even have an identity as a kid. I’m just alive. Being alive just so happens to be embarrassing. I’m thirsty but my water is room temp. Maybe I should’ve just stayed asleep.