Slowly descending into madness
Ad 2:
2022-06-17 05:20:26 (UTC)


My ex and I stayed friends after break up. We didn’t talk for 6 months, that was the highest non speaking period. So he texted me today, the girl he been seeing, wants him to be her boyfriend, he's very happy. I'd be happy for him as well if sth didn’t happen just 3/4 days ago.

Basically he calls me on phone. All my friends always video calls for some reason I think it's a very gen-z thing to do? I have semester final exams going and I've been very cautious not to fuck it up. Still I pick up, I always try to make time for my friends and he is a friend. Now the conversation went like that-

He: what u doin?
Me (not looking at him): making notes, I have exam tomorrow.
He: you have the prettiest face
Me: I know. That's like one of my traits.
: You know breaking up with you was my life's biggest tragedy
I frowned, then looked at him. Asked him, :"Are you drunk?"
: No, but I'm not sober either. High on LSD.
: We'll talk later when you’re sober and fully conscious.

After hanging up, he says, I don’t think I want to be friends with you anymore. I was like ok. Later that day, he sends me random pictures of sunset. Clearly he has no idea about the conversation that took place.

Now, I don’t usually trust men. And I don’t trust human beings who has BPD issues, is drunk or high. Years ago a girl kissed on my mouth without my consent and blamed it on being high, I mean cmon. If you can't handle it, don't do it? It’s like blaming Satan for my own sins, do people even realize how insane it sounds?

Back to my ex's topic. So he was on LSD that night. Now I've suspected this dude's been in love with me but when I confronted him, he said he doesn’t remember anything about this conversation. Now today, after 2/3 days, he says he has a girlfriend.

I don't have a problem with that, but he'll end up hurting this one as well. Again, not my headache. I cleared up as much as I could. I did my job from my side. If he wants to be in denial, he can stay in denial.

The whole situation weirded me out a bit. But if he doesn't care, it's not my place to say anything. It doesn’t bother me as long as he doesn’t bother me about love/relationship/break up with me stuff again. These men can't really handle their drinks or drugs. Idiots.