2022-06-09 01:09:37 (UTC)
Fateful choices !
DROP IT! And drowned in the disturbing feeling that creeps up when you really think about all that I’ve done. All the things I’ve seen. All the things I’ve searched. All the things I’ve heard. All of the things I hid. And everything that I have to avoid.
There’s so so so so much to drop, hellish. Can I? I don’t think to that extent, no.
YOU FORGET BUT NEVER ENOUGH TO STOP WANTING!!
KEEP GOING! and drown in your laziness and lethargy. Read and think and read and weep and read and black out fhen read again. Jump around in the afternoon and feel bad.
THE SATISFACTION IS TEMPORARY BUT NEVER LASTING!!!
IT NEVER WORKS TO SAY THIS IS THE LAST TIME I KNOW IT I KNOW IT SO WELL