Slowly descending into madness
2022-06-03 23:12:39 (UTC)
No alternative so I wait
I am not well without him. I will not be okay without him. I can't function without him. I love him. He's an asshole but I love him. It hurts, I miss his face, I miss his hugs, I miss everything about him. I can't let go of him and I know for a fact, he can't move on. He shouldn’t move on from someone who made all these changes just for him. I love him so much it hurts.
I will wait. I can't move on. I wish it was that easy, but it's not. I feel like I'd rather die. And I know he feels the same. If he doesn’t feel the same then there's no point of living. It begins and ends with us. There's no alternative plan.