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2022-05-27 11:57:00 (UTC)

I don’t have problems

Not legitimate ones, like mental illnesses or something.

So how did I end up on this side of the internet and this way in my head?

There are a few reasons I’m thinking of.
1. The part of the internet I’m on is just faking. They’re a bunch of hormonal teens that are trying to cope with crap and are expressing that in the most mentally unstable looking way possible.
2. They’re not faking and I’m just dramatic.
3. Something is fudging wrong with me. Not something that would be diagnosed. Like I’m literally just weird and unable to mix, socially. Or my mood just isn’t complying. It’s just something. Probably will forget about it when I get older.
4. Don’t think about it.

Don’t think about a time when things would’ve been better or different. There’s no such possibility that I would ever be a social butterfly or converse with anyone at my school. There’s no reality where I am happy during those late night hours. And there has never been hope for anything other than being alone. Don’t think about anything like that lol. There has always been nobody. So don’t even entertain the thought of there being somebody.

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