HiBoredI'mMom

Why is it so hard

Why is it so hard to say "I'm not okay." He says, "You know you can't be an actress forever." Blank stare. I can't even answer that. I have so much to say to you, but none of it will make a shred of difference. The truth is, you aren't the person I thought you were. Truth is, I see someone completely different than the one I fell in love with. If the person you fall in love with isn't real, it's just another fairy tale. Another piece of evidence to prove the futility of it all. I see glimpses of how I felt, and it keeps that last string holding on. Moments where my head is on your chest and I feel safe, and loved like I used to... But it quickly disappears. I put you on a pedastal of virtue, and never saw anything else. What wouldn't I give to feel the way I felt before. To put everything back the way it was. I don't feel beautiful anymore, I don't feel good enough. I don't know if I ever was.