marielmia

Mariel is MIA
2022-05-16 06:14:41 (UTC)

I set out a line for him

So, it's Monday and I've had some time to reflect. I have to say, i did give it a try and push Mr Hinge towards what i wanted. And he have at it but i just got the feeling he was uncomfortable. It was awkward. Maybe it was me, in that I was directing him in the wrong way. It was so technical, let alone non-spontaneous. All the while, i was hoping by giving him small hints, it would get him started, but hints turned to asks, which turned into directions and then AWKWARD. I'm used to guys making demands or at least leading the way. And yes, i do want to be that girl that knows what she wants but also knows how to say what she wants. So needless to say, things didn't go as I planned and i think perhaps Mr Hinge felt a bit inadequate. He was sheepish Sunday morning at breakfast and said he had stuff to do at home after and did not opt to do our usual Sunday pool thing.

We spoke Sunday night. He seemed ok. Perhaps the distance helped him. I'm not sure where this is going anymore. I feel like i've drawn a line and he has to figure out whether to meet me at it or draw one of his own. Was this what i wanted or was it self destructive on my part? Dunno.

Well, back to work. Have to focus on what is real for me.




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