Tati

I don’t want to go back. ..2505

I don’t want to go back.

I feel so much better when I am alone. Even the bad isn’t too much when I don’t have anyone watching me.

I am nothing when I am alone. I feel like I transcend all the things that I hate about myself. I am more than that which is in the mirror. I am not a part of it. It isn’t me.

But when they put me in that building. Surround me with all those people. It makes me feel like I am something. Specifically the thing I see in the mirror. And I want to tear myself apart. Piece by piece. Because who would want to look like that? It’s impossible that I would look that bad. So it’s not me. But it’s the appearance I feel like people see on me. It’s not me. Not me at all. I am not my reflection and that reflection is not me. So why do I feel so disgusting around people?