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2022-05-15 04:12:29 (UTC)

first entry - a friend's confession

A friend of mine confessed his feelings for me yesterday. I was speechless. Don't get me wrong, I could see a change in how he treated me compared to other girls, but I had hoped my intuition to be wrong this time. I was polite and gave him the long version of "it's not you, it's me". I think he took it well but I'm worried about what it means for our friendship. In his confession, he mentioned love. An absolutely ludicrous concept for the situation considering that we haven't really known each other for longer than three months. It really annoyed me but that's not the point. The point is if he considers the emotion he's currently feeling "love" then is it cruel of me to want to stay friends and pretend like nothing was said? I feel like it is and I'm so conflicted on whether to avoid him or continue the friendship as usual. He said it was cool with him to stay friends but sometimes people say things like that just to save face, you know? I'm not sure what is going on in his head. I don't want to lose him as a friend but more than that I don't want to hurt him further with my presence. I wish people just said what was on their mind rather than beat around the bush. That's hypocritical of me though since I'm also beating around the bush by sitting here wondering what he's thinking. Why do people develop feelings for each other anyway? It's so frustrating. :(

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