Tati

It’s hard because on one hand, ..

It’s hard because on one hand, I want to enjoy the time i have away from stressors by being with family and staying out of bed and actually having attention. But on the other hand, it’s that same family that reminds me of said stressors that make me wish I didn’t wake up. Should’ve offed myself while I was still quickly able to.

All of this feels pointless, I don’t feel like watching anything. Reading anything. Sleeping. Talking. Writing. Drawing. Listening. Playing. I just want to stop existing, stop perceiving, stop remembering.

Today is not a good day. Tomorrow isn’t either. I don’t want to live this life. Not now. Not ever.