Gone mental

Notes from my Black
2022-04-11 23:34:37 (UTC)

So it’s me

In the tenure of this relationship, I checked out. Most of the time I slowly made conscious choices to not involve myself. At a couple points I made clear and decisive decisions to emotionally leave.

Now I feel like a shell of who I used to be. I don’t love deeply. I don’t even like deeply. I don’t joy fully and I don’t feel contentment ever.

These were small choices I made over years. I did this.

I do friend deeply though. I’m that person that loves my friends without reservation or judgement.