Notes from my Black
I think this relationship has about a 30% chance of actually making it. As a result I don’t want to get rid of my memorabilia… including a sparse number of photos. She said she has a pile in the basement somewhere. I don’t think I’ve ever seen it.. don’t actually care.
It seems that she is emotional because in the photos there were ex girlfriends… so what. They were dear to me at one time. Some are still people I care about. I’m not actively trying to have a relationship with anybody… so it really shouldn’t bother her, I think. Oh, they aren’t pornography either. Just normal images…
Anyway- this is my thought today. I’d try to be optimistic but we talked more today and even though we talk, I don’t feel a connection and I don’t want to sleep with her.
I still feel broken.