Slowly descending into madness
2022-03-25 21:51:24 (UTC)


If I have been thoughtless, let me know
I can take a hint you know
Though I'm a little slow
Just don't keep it in you
Lest it take root and grow
The bottom line here is I love you so

These lines are taken from a beautiful song called 3 am by poets of the fall.

I think there are two magical time in a day. 3 am and 3 pm. 3 am because that's when the most beautiful thoughts and ideas play in my mind. 3 am because it's so quiet outside. 3 am because I love staying awake alone. 3 am because that's when God hears your pleas.

But if I start talking about 3 pm in the noon, I don’t think I can ever stop. 3 PM is more magical. It's right after the time everyone just had lunch, everyone is sleepy. That's when magic happens outside the house. I always feel like I'm missing out on something. I always want to take a walk and just go outside. This time is so special for me. It also reminds me of my childhood in RUET, having popsicles and reading books when everyone is sleeping, and I'm waiting for afternoon so I can go outside and play. I always wished I could go out a little earlier, around 3 pm. It's all about the feeling of missing out. Something wonderful is happening outside, I can feel it but I can't be a part of it.