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Life through my spiritual eyes❤️
2022-03-22 19:33:57 (UTC)

He Seemed Normal lol❤️

Listening to: Someone you loved - Samantha Harvey
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Good Evening🌙
Just a quick entry. I am feeling 100%, no it was not Covid. I had that in December and still test positive for the antibodies. The mask mandate ended here on Monday and to say I was happy was an understatement. I am severely asthmatic and wearing one triggered it quite often but I wore it for the safety of others and because it was the responsible thing to do. Now it is not required. I will make the assessment on an individual basis but so far, I am seeing more with smiles than masks. So I have been out without my mask and seeing smiles has been so good for the soul. I will completely respect those who choose to wear it and will respect their space. I will even offer them a smile.

Soo, the guy I wrote about a few days ago who messaged me after 6 years of not speaking. I will call him C. We talked for a few days and things went fairly well, or so I thought lol. We were not speaking about the possibility of an "us" just reconnecting and talking, in general, and I used the term multiple times "friends" with him. Welp, lol. Yesterday he sends me this message about how he is now going to move forward with me and how I was the one who got away and how he never stopped thinking about me etc and then before I can even respond, he sends me this whole checklist of what he will now require from me as his submissive. Yeah Uhm, no lol. Yes, I am submissive but being submissive is who I am, not a role I play so I don't jump into Ds relationships with a "Dom" because he wants me to. I have to feel my submission towards him. He has to ignite that desire to be his. It's the same as dating but there's another layer to it. It wasn't even that, it was the list. There are some things I would NEVER do. If you cared for someone why would you want someone to do something so damaging? Dang, I was angry and that takes a lot. His list wasn't even a baseline and was open to discussion. It was an "I demand" list. I let it go that night because when I read it. It sparked a bit of anger in me and I do not communicate from a place of anger. I never have and I never will. I will go quiet and process, that's how I have always been. I prefer to take time, cool down, and collect my thoughts. This morning I sent him a message stating I did not feel like we were a good fit and how the things he wanted were no risk to him but the huge risk to me and I would not do things I do not believe in, to prove my submission. I wished him well and he said best of luck and he will envy who I end up with lol. I am a damn good submissive but submissives do have limits. His were far outside of mine. His demands cross the line into abuse. You don't use the term "Dom" to get your rocks off at someone else detriment. That was it. I stopped talking. Good heavens lol, I know that's a bit cryptic and I am sorry. I know there are a few who read my journal who are underage and I want to be respectful of that. He seemed normal lol. I still don't remember him from 6 years ago but he posted some messages we shared and my side does sound like me and my writing.

Not really much else to say. I have a nail appointment tomorrow then a few errands. Then I work Thursday and off until Tuesday. I am heading up to my cottage this weekend to see how it faired over the weekend. We may be staying, I am unsure yet.

Ok, I am off to watch a movie with my puppy and cuddle up with a tea and blanket.

Have a beautiful night!💜




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