Karma Rose

My Secret Thoughts
2022-03-09 02:34:36 (UTC)

Wishing for the Best

Dear stranger,

Today has been frustrating, not just with other people, but especially with myself. I could be working so much harder- everyone could be working so much harder. I have an interview tomorrow with a big company- we'll see how it goes. Soon after that, I'll have a presentation to do. I just gotta think through on what I am going to say- I have so much experience- I just need to know what to say. Hmmm. Please please please wish me for the best and pray for me. Please God- I promise- I will go to Church EVERY Sunday if I get this- I'll even read a lot of pages from the Bible and pray every morning and night. I know I usually come to you in times of need, but I've been a pretty decent person and always try to be better- I feed the cats, try my best with homeless people, and having been doing somewhat my best at work and in my leadership positions. I'll work even harder to give back to the community- for sure! Please. Please. Please.

The voices in my head get louder. Other days, it's like I can't even hear it. It goes on and off as the days go by. There are times when I am genuinely scared that it'll just keep getting worse and it'll one day prevent me from living my life- and I know that that's such a cliche thing to say. You might be thinking, "Oh Karma, come on, you're not the only one in the world with those types of thoughts- grow up." Well, it's my diary and that's what I want to talk about. Now, I'm kinda over it- haha- moving on.

I asked my online friend to marry me, but he said no. Whelp, I'll try again for however many times it takes and hope for the best. Pray for me. :)

From yours truly,
Karma Rose

P.S. What kind of thoughts run through your head?




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