Slowly descending into madness
Weakling and the stars
Here's the thing about nervous breakdowns. You don’t really know what's causing it. You just know it hurts. For me it's at least 80% physical pain. I go through a lot at the time. I choke I panic I can feel my feet getting cold, my heart beating out of my chest. And when I'm on the edge I can feel a sharp pain in my chest and in my belly. It hurts. It feels like someone is sawing me into halves. I can feel the blood soaking my bed sheet, except it's only in my head. I wanna paint about it, I never have the time. I have a few memories I'm very fond of when I'm breaking into pieces.
However on a positive note, I had a really good time 3 days ago. I went up on the rooftop, I sang fly my to the moon ghostly while watching the stars and the sky was clear in a very long time. There was no moon but the stars were visible even in my eyes with power of -7.5. I wish to have more good times like this.