where r u?
and i'm so sorry.
i thght we had an outstanding agreement to not vanish on each other without at least saying bye first. maybe that gets voided by me acting like an asshole. yeah. you were trying to tell me to gear down, with the pace and emotional impact (?) of information. i didn't really (listen). the pressure within in me combined with the pressure outside (from the white nationalists) is doing a number on my social skills. but it's no excuse. everyone's under pressure.
focusing all my efforts on manifesting a message to your subconscious -- "i miss you something fierce. if you feel the same, slip a return msg into my slot or anything."
i'm fully lost without you.