Night owl

Finding Hope / Escaping suicide
2022-01-28 00:36:00 (UTC)

Some days

Some days, I just wanna leave the negativity in my head
I just want relief from my stress
Some days, I don't wanna see ya
Have a bunch of people to impress
Yeah, I just want relief from my stress

Late nights, starin' out the window doin' 85
Got my state of mind
walkin' on that gray line
Hopin' that my stress dies
It's like I hate it but I love it at the same time
Pressure pushin' me from all sides
Insecurities of all kinds
Yeah, I'm a hostage to my own pride
Most important things in life to me are things I know I can't buy
it's me in phases

I'm not in the mood, to meet another stranger
I'm not in the mood, to have a conversation
And talk about a bunch of things that I don't feel amazed with
Gettin' too close to me, could be dangerous
I don't like the energy, I leave the situation
All this negativity that I can't get away from
All this negativity, I think I need a break from
I'm thankful, but

Some days, I just wanna leave the negativity in my head
I just want relief from my stress

this life got my head spinnin'
Wonder what I'd do if I knew these were my last minutes
Wonder if I had a week to live, would I stay trippin'?
Wastin' every day that I had left tryna sell tickets
Take a couple days and get away from this fast livin'
Friends I had, now they act different, it's all switchin'
it's pretty hard to watch
Those things you used to love turn to things that you wish you forgot
Real moments that make you question the things that you want's
Got me growin' mentally, but stressin' me out 'til I drop
Over the top, that's what I live on a daily basis
I always find a way to find the bad in good situations
It's sad, huh?
Yeah, I live my life on the edge, don't want the meds

I wonder was I was wrong thinkin' this is where God led me
Or did I get involved with somethin' that was too heavy?
I drive until I'm lost and just sit in my car yelling
My inner critic talks, I'm just hopin' that God helps me to stop stressin'

Yeah... some days
I just wanna leave




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