Lost Soul

~This Crazy Life Of Mine~
2022-01-05 10:32:28 (UTC)

The uncertainty

I'm not even sure where to start... Life has been an extreme rollercoaster...

I never thought things would turn in the ways it has... July I found out I was pregnant... pregnant with my 4th and final baby. I am excited now becuz she will be my first and only baby girl but at the same time, I'm completely terrified. I fear the unknown so much. The what's next!? I've raised 3 boys, basically alone but this is so much different. Baby girls daddy is going to be there for every step. Every cry and every melt down. But I still have this overwhelming fear of what is to come. I'm starting a whole new chapter. Growing a whole new life... Ugh. I'm just confused. Scared. Unsure of what's next. I feel so alone. Scared.

I'm 3 hours away from family. From my best friend. From people who I trust and love. Not saying there isn't people here that I don't love and trust cuz there is but it's not the same... Idk. I'm just scared... So scared... Feeling alone...




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