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My short pointless life
2021-12-26 17:04:37 (UTC)

Whyyyyyyy

It is technologically impossible to have something fancy without using up a lot of resources. My beloved laptop. Its years old but still running like a beauty. No fancy shit. just pure laptop experience. Intel i3 with 4bg of ram. Then comes the windows updates. fuck that shit it made the laptop slower in running processes. The fuck up is you can't disable the updates until you install a dozen ones. so my verison is really old. Like when windows 10 first came out. that look.

I don't mind the simplicity. i need a practical device. Apple fuckers have done a wonderful job at integrating the software and hardware so that you assholes don't feel the difference. Until they fuck it up themselves.

Windows just gives feeds you updates upon updates of shit making the system slower and more sluggish. If you have a slow processor then good luck you will need to buy a new one. or if you have knowledge of the machine systems then you can survive like what i do.

Take anything in your life. The more you want to make it better the more shit you gotta put into it. You want to practice your skill, need to put in more hours. Need a better laptop, spend the money. Want to drive faster, buy a fast car.

You can't have a simple phone which came out decades ago running todays tech. thats the whole point of this pointless ramble of mine. I know it sounds common sense but this concept seeps in our lives in many ways.

So the telescope is in space. im excited. Its a lonely feeling. very lonely. its what makes me bitter towards others. Bitter towards their celebrations. im a fucking all year round grinch.I feel their celebrations like birthdays and parties to be petty. I don't feel the joy. the happiness. I felt it yesterday when the telescope was launched.. i was alone in that. made me realize how lonely i am. Not a single friend shared my excitement. they didn't even care. I kept teasing everyone on my status with the countdown. out of that around 5 people texted me back. to which i replied later that night with one word...Telescope. Haven't heard from them since. they wont reply. they can't fathom why a person would get excited on a telescope. since their human minds are all shallow and they live in their own bubble of me me and me.

Lucky for me i got to see the launch at work. i was juggling between three clients and watching it. I timed it perfectly so that when they are busy doing the tasks i assigned to them i could watch the launch in peace. i was so nervous. and a bit more anxious. i was tapping my leg when we do when nervous. i rarely do that.

the cure to my loneliness is death, or to find someone similar to me. like a caged lion, slowly losing my roaarr. pacing around in my cage. alone. forever.




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