Songbird System

Raven
2021-12-09 23:57:08 (UTC)

Oh Wait

I'm still here.

I used my sliver tongue to get out of the whole grandparent situation. I can't believe I have to manipulate and lie to my mom now just to make sure I don't get fucking sold. Sadly I'm gonna have to hang on to my manipulation skills longer. They're the only thing that has kept me alive this long is this fucked up family. It still makes me sad that my best talent is manipulating people...I'm so fucked up. Fuck you family. I never wanted to be like this. And yet here I am, lying and cheating just to survive.

I may have forgotten that my sister would probably die if I leave so I have to plan this more carefully. I don't want her to fucking die. So yeah, I forgot about the blackmail. Sometimes I'm just a fucking dumbass. I hate having all this hope and then remembering I can't fucking do anything about it because Morgan will refuse to get out of a situation! Urgh.

I also have to remember that my grandparents will find a way to drag me back kicking and screaming if I don't do this properly. Because police and corrupt and will back me back. Fuck police.

Fuck this family. Should I just wait for everybody to finally die again? So they can stop fucking up my life. No. That's stupid. My mom is gonna screw me over. Goddammit. I don't know what to fucking do.

I'm so lost. Somebody help me. I don't want anybody to die because of me. I don't want to die either. Why can't somebody fucking help me for once in my life? I have to save myself again. Just like fucking always. And save everybody else too. Because people refuse to see me as a human. I'm nothing but a doll to them.




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