Slowly descending into madness
Hide n seek
I don’t understand one thing, I took marketing as my major so I don't have to work too hard at it right? Why the fuck am I up for last 32 hours then?
I just got back home. I have plenty friends. People know me as a kindhearted, beautiful, doll type girl. I don't blame them, I never gave them any bad impression about me. I've been trying hard to control my impulses so I dont end up hurting my close ones. I have severe anger issues and I'm trying to manage them. Pretty much succeeded, yes without therapy.
Yesterday I was counting the views of entries here, and I was pretty much shaken up. In one day, one entry had 24 views? Is this what I wanted? Attention will bring the fake nice me again. Here, this little diary/blog is where I'm trying to be fully me. The person even I try to hide from, I'm trying to accept her. I'm trying to accept all my flaws.
Few months ago someone told me I'm flawless, on 18th July. I am far away from being flawless, but I'm not a bad person. It’s just he never really got to see my ugliest side which I'll be unleashing here.
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