Songbird System

Raven
2021-10-29 23:11:32 (UTC)

Surprise Things Got Worse

Guess who just figured out that one of their triggers was the movie Wedding Crashers because of all the ableism and rape jokes? Me. Holy shit I hate that movie even more now. It's not funny that's fucking gross. Because it has the mindset that rape victims deserve it and of course my mom was laughing at that because why wouldn't she laugh at rape jokes with her sexual assault survivor child in the same room?

Turns out I'm now being forced to work for a MLM by my mom which I'm not looking forward to because I reasonably hate MLMs. It's called Evolution Travel. Does anybody know anything about them? Maybe I can still convince my mom not to work with these scams. Or a way for me to get out of it? Please I don't want to work at a MLM. Please get off of Facebook mom. Please. I fucking hate Facebook. Can it stop fucking over people I care about and radicalizing them? Oh God.

I got yelled at basically this entire morning so I'm not in the right mental space. My mom yells at me a lot now for being lazy and not having a job. And then tries to flip the script to her actually caring about me so that's why she's doing this. And now she's yelling at Morgan for her asking for pill refills. Oh my fucking God. Sorry, I'm stressed doesn't fucking cut it. I bought into that for too long. I'm not letting anybody use the stressed excuse again.

Also, my mom is still trying to get me to work at Macy's. And when I showed a severe trauma response to that (namely eyes dilating and taking a step back), she, of course, yelled at me. Saying that I was so happy working there and to just get over that Karen. Oh yes, I was so happy working the job that had me crying in the bathroom almost every day. The reason I was fucking happy when I got home is because I got home, you fucking dumbass. And the reason I was happy when I left was because I hated my job but enjoyed my long commute away from everybody and away from you.

She keeps yelling at me for being stressed. Because, yes, that's how you get rid of somebody's stress in her eyes. Yelling at them and trying to force them to talk to you.

Oh God. I don't want to know her reaction to me being trans and a communist. And having Autism. Oh God. And changing my first name. Oh God. Oh God. Oh God please help me.




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