Fake It Till You Make It
Sense of Impending doom
Okay so i know that my anxiety is on high alert and like i can't really trust my own mind right now cause it's a dark place at the moment and i'm struggling, and that's okay, because sometimes you do. sometimes you have rough mental health phases, it's okay it's normal, but that doesn't make it easy, or that you should give into that darkness.
I know i'm saying this like i'm talking to you, to someone else like they are dealing with this but really i'm just talking to myself, doing some preaching to the choir.
I'm just going through it today, like it was super hard.
and tonight i know that i need to sleep, and rest because i don't know what tomorrow is going to look like and be like and i just know myself right now and a little extra rest would not be amiss.
But my anxiety is just literally making my hands shake(which is an anxiety reaction usually reserved only for public speaking) but here we are, i just feel this strong sense of impending doom, like everything that can go wrong will, like everything is going to be really hard, and painful and bad or worse than it could be.
I'm trying really hard to stay.... in a neutral head space, if not an actual positive one... i'm aiming for balance and if i find some joy or peace or okayness along the way than that's just icing on the cake.
if you are also dealing with rough things in your life, and then having anxiety and difficult mental health stuff on top of it.... drop me a line let me know how you deal, or just be like Girl i get you.
for now... it's a take my Melatonin, eat some chocolate and go to sleep type of vibe right now.