Scream Above the Sounds
2021-10-17 19:10:22 (UTC)


It's been a challenging week. Somewhat busy, busier than usual. I saw James Bond with my dad on Thursday as a late birthday treat for him. There is so much I'd like to say on that film. I think I'm genuinely a bigger Bond fan than any other franchise, but Star Wars does come incredibly close. I will refrain from any spoilers but I think it was a fine film, it could be second best to Casino Royale. Casino Royale is untouchable for me. It's such a beautifully made film. I'll have to rewatch the Craig era, I'll gladly skip Quantum though, that film was just...dire. So yeah, me and my dad went to the cinema. We don't have a great deal in common to be honest, but I was introduced to 007 at such a young age, we had Goldeneye on VHS which came out in 1995, I had probably watched it by the time I was 7 maybe? I was fascinated with Bond, absolutely fascinated with him. The gadgets, the guns, the cars, the women and of course, the music. The opening credits for a Bond film is one of my favourite parts of the film. It's such a good feeling. I think my dad enjoyed it, I suppose he struggles with a more modern day 'woke' style of Bond but he seemed pretty happy with it. It was a good ending for the Craig era and I'm very excited to see what they choose to do next.

I went suit shopping yesterday with some of the boys for the wedding that's coming up in December. I'm all set now. I've gone for a nice blue suit, I'm pretty pleased with it. It's coming fast. Everything is coming fast now. I'll be climbing Snowdon the week after next, and then the stag night is around the corner, followed by another mini stag gaming night we have planned, and then the wedding will be here. It makes me quite anxious knowing stuff is coming. I'm very much a 'on the fly' person. It's all exciting stuff, it just stresses me a bit. I'm no longer on the 'singles table' which is nice. I'm back on a nice comfy table with four of my good friends and two of their partners, so very grateful I've managed to wiggle my way back onto that table.

Despite the busyness, the stress is still there. Sleep has been difficult to come by this week, and last week, and maybe even the week before that. I can't explain what it is. Maybe it is university and the stress that comes with that. I'm still thinking about M a lot. We had our last proper conversation about six weeks ago, prior to the text I received from her a short while ago. I did wrestle with my mind to maybe text her back again, but I remember that she said that this breakup would be a good thing in time and we'd both realise that, and I suppose maybe I'm still waiting to realise it? I don't know. There is a lot of stuff that reminds me of her though: places, music, celebrities, terrible dad jokes. They've added the new season of 'You' and 'Money Heist' onto Netflix and I've put off watching both because it was something we did together. I probably will watch them at some point but I guess now just isn't a good time. I suppose it's important to remember how things were towards the end, rather than trying to fuel things off nostalgia and raw emotion. I know a part of me will always love her regardless and I hope that she is doing good.

I decided to name this entry after a Simply Red song, maybe that's me truly showing my age now. Maybe I'm more like my dad than I thought I was, haha. I'll provide a link below if anybody is interested in checking it out. It's from 2003 and it puts me in a pretty good mood. I added it to our playlist. We both still add music to our playlist, hard to say whether that's a good or bad thing. Either way, this song is a goodie. I had a nap earlier and woke up and now it's 7:30pm so I'm praying I manage to get some sleep before university tomorrow.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ffzCVTOgGbM Simply Red - Sunrise