Songbird System

Raven
2021-09-27 05:46:57 (UTC)

Things keep getting fucking worse

Why is it that whenever I actually get fucking happy for something everything goes to fucking shit?

Oh, I actually didn't go to the psych hospital. I went to the emergency room and everywhere and they literally did nothing but send me home fully knowing I had violent and suicidal thoughts. Thanks, emergency room. And also, all the outpatient wards were ignoring me because I didn't actually try to kill myself or somebody else or something like that.

Turns out I'm being forced to return to the Bay Area. HOORAY. Nearby the abusive family members over there. DOUBLE HOORAY. And I'll still be forced to visit Trigon since he's still blackmailing me too. TRIPLE HOORAY. I love everybody blackmailing me. Lovely. I'm already being called a fat, lazy, lying whore every day and I haven't even gotten there yet. Life fucking sucks. I hate it here.

I'm just so fucking trapped. Also, my dad decided to fuck me some more and end my medical insurance. For going to the Bay Area. I literally can't fucking win. I just want to save up enough money and move somewhere fucking else.

Also, yes, mom and Morgan are fighting right now in the other room. Because that's all they ever do. And my psychosis has been forgotten. God, I might really kill myself if this keeps up. I can't fucking escape these fuckers. Really, it's just fucking spite making me continue now. Ha, bitches, once all the bitches blackmailing me are dead in five years, then I might have some degree of happiness.




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