CryingSoul

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2021-09-25 12:18:00 (UTC)

September 25th

I'm at a good place today, my man came around yesterday and we had a really good chat. Maybe we should of had it awhile ago so we were on the same page. He needs alot of support, more than l had previously thought. Yes he is an alcoholic, l accepted him knowing that. His drinking whilst we spend precious time together needs to be cut back and he has agreed to that. The mistakes he makes with his children have no detriment to me & i'd never tell him what to do with them it's not my place. I have met both of them, his daughter is a beautiful young woman that obviously is a daddy's girl and rightfully so. His son is just a typical 16 yr old. Him allowing them to do drugs in the house l believe is wrong, but there his kids and it's his house. He is still grieving over the loss of his wife. I can support him emotionally if he needs it or just give him his space to deal with things when and should they arise. He has also said that he needs to see me during the week, besides the friday night stop overs and the sunday walks. I couldn't be more happier with that.
My man is disbanding one of his bands. So he will be keeping his main one and the new one. I'm sure this will be more managable for him as he also works during the day. It's sad but the band he is disbanding they all have other bands to play in anyway.

My grandson is still in a bad place with covid. Thank you to all those that have sent me messages, it means alot to me.

Today is our first year anniversary of being back together. We have both had different life journeys from our childhood days of innocence. I love him so very much.

My song today means alot to me as  when we started our chapter, we was just supposed to remain friends with a few benifits, but it grew into so much more.

I know you care by Ellie Goulding

Clinging to me
Like a last breathe you, would breathe
You were like home to me
I don't recognize the street

Please don't close your eyes
Don't know where to look, without them
Outside the cars speed by
I never heard them until now

I know you care
I know it is always been there
But there's trouble ahead, I can feel it
You are just saving yourself
When you hide it

Yeah, I know you care
I see it in the way you stare
As if there was trouble ahead
And you knew it
I'll be saving myself from
The ruin
And I know you care

I used to run down the stairs
To the door and I thought
You were there
Do you shape trough the comfort of us?
Two lovers loved out of love

I know you care
I know it is always been there
But there's trouble ahead,
I can feel it
You are just saving yourself
When you hide it

Yeah, I know you care
I see it in the way you stare
As if there was trouble ahead
And you knew it
I'll be saving myself from
The ruin
And I know you care

And know it wasn't always wrong
But I've never known a
Winter so cold
Now I don't warm my hands
In your coat
But I still hope

'Cause this is how things ought
To have been
And I know the worst it
Wasn't all that it seemed
Why can't I dream?
Why can't I dream?

'Cause I know you care
And I know you care
I know you care
I know you care
I know it's always been there

Take care of you x


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