Gentleman ♀

I Want A Girlfriendddddddd

Heyyyyyy,

So, I don't know if I've ever officially said it on here but at least at the moment, I'm pan/ace. For any uncultured swine that doesn't know what I'm saying, pansexual means I like all genders (I personally prefer any non-males but I still like men), and asexual means I don't feel sexual attraction to anyone. So someone whose pan/ace might see an attractive girl and think "wow she's really pretty, wouldn't it be cool to go on a date with her or even date her" but if the girl were to... ahem, go any further... they'd nope the hell out of there. Do you understand now? If not I strongly suggest doing at least some basic research on it cause the LGBTQ community is soooo awesome!

I've said it in the past and I'll say it again, I'm not ready for a relationship yet. I think I personally am too young and don't fully understand whatever the hell being in a relationship means. Plus I'm wayyyyyy too ugly for a girl to notice me T^T. But like other than that, HAVE YOU SEEN THE LGBTQ COUPLES AT MY SCHOOL!?!?!?!? They're so cute and happy and it just makes me want a partnerrrrrrrr! Or like a month ago, goddamn Avery invited me over to a sleepover and I kid you not! We were chilling in the pool at like 9:30 PM on a Sunday (it was labor day so we had Monday off) having a heart to heart while I was holding her like those cute couples do! Do you know what I mean? I was standing up holding her with my hands around her legs under her butt and she was facing me with her legs wrapped around my hips and her arms around my neck? And every once in a while she lay her head on my shoulder! I'll put an image address (or three) at the end of this entry if you don't know what I'm talking about. Tell me that isn't gay, I dare you. IT"S TOTALLY GAY! What am I supposed to do about that? It was obvious something was up, it wasn't romantic like that though, I think it was just her/us/I-don't-even-know-anymore experimenting. Still though, I'd love to have someone to do that with! It's so romantic and dreamy, it's not fair >:( !

I'm bored so Imma write about what (I hope) I'd do if I had a girlfriend in a few years. A few years meaning maybe I could pull it off next year or maybe I could do it when I'm 25, it just depends on what it is. Also I'm saying girlfriend cause I prefer girls not cause I'm a lesbian. The first thing I'd do is constantly remind her how pretty she is. It doesn't matter what time it is or how I'd do it, I wouldn't let her forget it! Emmas boyfriend does stuff like that, giving her his favorite hat covered in his cologne and hiding love notes in the rim (it's a long-distance relationship), and I want to have a relationship like that so bad! I'd write her love letters and buy her stuffed animals and her favorite candy from the gas station a few streets down. I know it's cringey and will probably take a week's worth of my confidence to pull off but goddamn I want to be the best girlfriend anyone could ever ask for. I want to be like Emma's boyfriend, the type of girl her family awes over cause I'm so sweet. I wanna invite her over for a sleepover so we can watch a movie, play video games, and listen to music at 3:00 AM with my LED lights cause we can't sleep. I'd memorize all her favorite songs and we'd jam out to them whenever possible. Another cute thing, pet names 101%. Babe, Kitty, Candy, Love, Bunny, soooooo cute I might die! I'd make sure she was always happy and if I couldn't I'd make the best out of it. If we went on dates I'd take her to places like the carnival/cedar point, a museum, or even just a walk in the park. The most important part obviously being that it's somewhere she likes. Nothing too over the top but nothing boring.

I've spent like 45 minutes on this so I guess I should go to sleep. Expect a part 2 of this sometime soon, it's not guaranteed but I'm a pretty hopeless person so yeah. Good night!

~ Gentleman

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