Lost for words at times
2021-09-18 16:18:19 (UTC)

Contacted my children

I'm so blessed that l have relatively well balanced, healthy children. After writting my entry this morning l was incontact with 3 out of the 4 children l have. (My children range in ages from 28-38)
I told them sorry that l hadn't been in contact as l have been trying to deal with a few things that l wasn't going to go into, and that l loved them. They're amazing to offer support and allow me time, without even questioning me. Needless to say l could never tell them, what exactly i've been going through. I can't tell anybody as l don't want them to dislike him for what i've allowed him to do to me.

Just texted him about going out tonite.
I'm sorry, but i'm not going to be able to go. I'm really not in a good place atm and l can't keep pretending l am anymore x
His reply was
Ok x
I feel relieved to be honest. It looks like netflix and chocolate is on the menu for me.
So proud of me

Take care of you x