I took a mental health day off ..
I took a mental health day off of work. I can't explain it. I just feel overwhelmed. Completely fried. I'm usually very good at meditation. It's basically a daily practice. A vital part of my spiritual belief system but it feels almost impossible today. I can't sit. I can't breathe. I am just thoroughly exhausted. My body and mind are in full protest from too much work, too much school, too much stress almost as if I'm having an allergic reaction to life itself. Nevertheless, even though I didn't go to work, I woke early and did my homework even though there's more. Always more. Then I went on a 3 mile walk/run. It really was the last thing that I wanted to do but I figured it'd be a good way to discharge some of this excess nervous energy. It was somewhat if not fully effective. And now I will try to pace myself. I'll try to meditate even if only for a few minutes, rest, relax, nourish myself. Then tomorrow will be a new day. I will have homework again of course but the weekend should prove at least a little healing before I plunge back into the madness of my job.