My Boring Life
I Find It Kinda Funny, I Find It Kinda Sad
Happy Birthday to me. I'm standing in line at the license plate agency trying to put a new license plate on the POS car I bought a few weeks ago. Fun stuff. Always have to arrive about 20 minutes early unless I want to stand in line for two hours. It's always shocking when I come here and see an obviously disabled person and no one lets them jump to the front of the line or at least offer them a chair so they can sit while they wait. I always let very old or disabled people ahead of me in line no matter where I am. I mean if they are able to stand up without obvious discomfort then I just mind my own business but if they have a cane or walker or I see anyone that looks like it may be difficult for them to stand long periods of time, I let them go ahead of me. I don't know what's wrong with people. When did so many people become cold hearted and stop caring about their fellow man. A lot of people act like if they don't know you, you don't matter to them.
I couldn't be like that, it would make me feel like shit. I guess I try to live by the saying " be the change you want to be in the world." If everyone would just do the right things and treat other people with respect the world would be a better place. Stop raising hell about race and sexuality and start making it about treating everyone with kindness. Make that the thing to do. i guess I'm living in a dream world. Small simple changes and a little effort from everyone would make a huuuge impact though. The world is going to shit. I went to the grocery store a few nights ago and when I came out I saw two dairy queen cups sitting next to my car. I looked at the car beside mine and there were two teenage girls sitting in the backseat and it looked like they had just opened their car door and sat their trash on the ground. I guess while the parent had run into the store the kids decided that now was a good time to ditch their garbage. I have to live in this town, most likely for the rest of my life. This is the future of my country? People that can't walk 15 ft to a trashcan sitting at the stores entrance or at least take their trash home and discard it there? Sad. I picked up their litter without saying a word and threw it away myself. I heard the girls giggle like they just made me their trash man or something. Some people may say they are just young and dumb but I've never behaved like that at any age. What the fuck is wrong with some people?
I watched Joker again last night. I love that movie, I suppose it's my favorite. I don't think it's ever ok to solve problems with violence but I love the way he takes care of shit in that movie. The first time I saw it, I went to the movies by myself bc I couldn't get a friend to come out with me. I felt lonesome sitting down between two empty seats but after it started I realized being alone is the best way to see that movie. I kinda felt like I could relate to how he felt. Being sad and lonely. Constantly trying to make other people happy but everyone just treats him like shit. Then he snaps... Love that movie.
Next in line, brb.
12 HOURS LATER
I forgot I was in the middle of writing this. I'm going to Pinky's house this evening! When I got home this afternoon Pinky was out at her mailbox. I waved to say hey and she walked over. She seemed really concerned with the bump on my forehead from when I cracked it on the side of that headstone. It still looks pretty bad but it's not as painful as it was. Anyway, I told her it was my birthday and she started smiling and was so happy. She asked me about my plans and she invited me over when she found out I didn't have anything going on. I don't really know why, I guess she's just being a good neighbor and I think she's just a friendly person anyway. I don't know what to say or how I'm going to act. Idk. I guess I'm going to head there now. I hope it goes ok.