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2021-08-02 16:15:11 (UTC)

So Here We Are

It's been a long time coming I guess. So much to write about but hard to really know where to begin. It's been a pretty boring summer, but I suppose with the state of the world it was always going to be this way, right? It's kinda 'business as usual' for me to be in the house all the time, I'm very much a homebody. I think even I'm at the stage now though where I just want to break free and be able to do what I want, when I want to do it. Hell, I'm even ready to go back to nightclubs. A friend is looking at planning something in a few weeks when they reopen but I doubt it'll be the same thing. We recently discussed that the old club we used to frequent was open again but it was booking tables and whatnot, which sounds ridiculous because it was an old dingy dungeon for lack of better words. You wouldn't go in there to sit down. You would go in there and pay £1.50 for doubles and get out of your mind drunk and dance to some Disturbed, Slipknot, Blink 182 and various other bands from that golden generation. Those were the days. If clubs reopen properly then I would definitely go, despite feeling a bit too old for it these days it would be nice to try and recapture some of the past.

I've been pretty social all things considered though. I went to a BBQ on Saturday and that was pretty good. Lots of booze, hot tub, great music. It's probably the pinnacle of summer for me really. I'm counting down the days until I'm back at uni at this point because everything just feels so stale. I have another month and a half before year two begins. It will be interesting to see how that unfolds; if they told us we would be homeschooled again I think I would be totally fine with it. A lot of people ask me if I'm disappointed with not having the full university experience but I suppose the truth is, I kinda did have that experience when I was 18-20, I just wasn't really studying. I still went out every week with my friends who WERE at uni and got ridiculously drunk with them. I feel too old for that now, I can't be drinking consistently, it'll finish me off! I need weeks to recover.

Fitness is slowly on the way back. I've been running again so we're making a start. I've actually lost quite a lot of weight from having a bad sleeping pattern and missing meals, so that's probably not good..but at least I don't look as fat now. I'm still a bit apprehensive about joining a gym, not because of the pandemic but mainly a confidence thing. I don't want to go in there and make an idiot of myself or use things wrong. It just sets off a whole anxiety scenario in my head and it puts me off. So I think maybe I'll invest in my own weights but I just don't know where to store them. I should convince my dad to turn our garage into a gym, maybe that would encourage everybody to do a bit of fitness.

I woke up at 4pm today so I really need to get my shit together and start sleeping a bit more properly. I was up late last night waiting for M to come home so we could watch Titans. I watched the first episode a while ago and despite not being very 'superhero-y', I am a sucker for anything related to Batman, so I've gravitated towards it purely for Robin. I've only seen episode one so far but yeah, I think it's pretty solid, and I know the new season is coming soon so it will be nice to have something to look forward to. Saying that, I need to rewatch Dexter too because that new season will be dropping soon too. Here's hoping they make it better than the original ending, huh?

I've totally committed to FFXIV now too. After recent allegations and controversy surrounding Blizzard, it's hard to know if I'll ever play another Blizzard title. It makes me sad and I do feel like it's an end of an era and a part of me has died and all the other dramatic shit you could throw in. It's sad to have dedicated 15 years of your life to something and know they don't care about you, respect your time or even respect women. If anybody reads this and you don't know what I'm talking about, you can just search Blizzard Entertainment or maybe just search for Alex Afrasiabi and that will lead you straight to the crux of all of this. The long and short of it is, people working at Blizzard were absolute dickheads, and it's annoying because I really looked up to some of them. I don't want to get into a rant about it though. I've done enough ranting about it the past few weeks! I need to get some food and then prep for my raid in FFXIV tonight. Maybe I'll write again tomorrow, who knows?


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