I've decided I don't care.
I'm done with it. I just want to wake up at the right time, play Genshin Impact, scroll through Pinterest and Tiktok, exercise in the morning, and read/watch things. Who cares about gloominess. If people decide to interact with me, it's not my problem that they'll have to deal with it. I'm fine in my own room, doing my own thing. No need to look at it any other way. Sure I get lonely sometimes and want things I can't have but in the end, I'm fine here. Just fine.