It's a paralysis things. Comes time to sleep and I genuinely have no idea what I want to do. Should I go to sleep, solve my back pain, and do this all again tomorrow. Or stay up and do random stuff. Bu they both lead to a certain unhappiness. Maybe it's the night. Maybe it's because I'll never be satisfied with my options. I hate this. I really do. But I'm going to go to sleep because being tired is hard. And talk to people tomorrow. And not plan anything besides my morning shower. Just shower and freshen up. No rush because, I've seen the result of that, tears.
[draft made last night ends there]