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2021-07-23 10:46:21 (UTC)


Led Zeppelin - Ramble on

"The leaves are falling all around, time I was on my way
Thanks to you, I'm much obliged for such a pleasant stay
But now it's time for me to go, the autumn moon lights my way
For now I smell the rain, and with it pain, and it's headed my way
Ah, sometimes I grow so tired
But I know I've got one thing I got to do"

In my opinion, the best band ever. Zepp has been my favourite band since I was 18 years old.

So, this ties in with my decision last night. Actually, a few decisions, lol and since making them I am feeling lighter and less weighted by "what is". I deleted my account on the dating app, there were eight ongoing conversations (at the early stages) with eight men but none had any real appeal to me. I decided any people I have met on there, either through conversations or actually dating them, they have all been deceptive and treated me with disrespect. So that shit, has flown, sayonara.

Also, the psychiatrist led me on and also was deceptive. Thinking himself comical or whatever it is he was doing, he disrespected me, lied to me, made false claims. A grown arse man, older than me, with four grown up children and he does things like that to a me. A woman who gave him truth, decency and my company as well as appeasing his need to see me in my thigh high boots. Which I was perfectly comfortable at the time watching "Iron Fist" series on Netflix, but no, for him I did that.

The world is full of cunts. They get treated badly by someone else then go ahead and do the same to another person. I don't live like that, never have. Every person is an individual and all interactions are utterly different between two people. How one person interacts with another might be totally different with a different person, it's all about the chemistry of equilibrium between them. Yet, it would seem, the majority of people I come across have these built up emotional scars and treat all, how they were treated.....I like to call these people, "Cunts." :) People that cannot take accountability or reflect on why their previous interactions went sour, it isn't just about the other person, it's about them too. Two people interacting, both responsible and accountable.

Anyways, he asked me to reflect on his bullshit. Yes, Johnny, I have reflected. You're still a bullshitter, can't take back what you've already done, treacle.

I'm off to the cinema tonight with my daughter, and we're swimming tomorrow and looking for a boot fair or fete of some sort for Sunday. That's her job to do today, find a boot fair or fete or similar to go to. If one isn't on, I'll likely take her to a very magical place I know for a picnic and chill time. Hopefully the weather stays strong and beautiful with the glorious sunshine.

"Fingers" mentioned going for a drink catch-up over the weekend. It is only friends not sex stuff, I don't want "fingers" like that or want him like that anymore. We had our time a couple years ago and that stays there now. Despite him being the only man to make me orgasm 11 times in one hour, without even using his dick. Quite the man, lol, I'd say. But "Fingers" is a man of crime and although I know his softer sides, he is very affectionate, loyal to the people who are loyal to him, and has a loving heart for all things nature/animals. He is not the man for me. So, we stay friends from now on.

So, it's back to my planning for my vegetable/herb garden that I am going to create. Along with some red maple chinese trees and awesome lighting, and fire pit. Also, I'll continue hiking everyday and joining my hiking friends on Saturday mornings, I am a member of the Ramblers so we have some events coming up soon too. I'll meet someone at some point, but I needed to remove myself from that god awful dating site and find my happiness again, it was a horrible place to be and even my daughter said, I was carefree before I began dating. She is right, I was.