My Boring Ass Life
Good Shitty Morning! Day 3
Surprisingly enough yesterday I worked out, I know, very shocking. Somehow talking to my sister yesterday made me very motivated and encouraged me to workout even though I didn't even mention working out. Anyways, I am proud of myself!
However today, I slept horribly. Probably because I stayed up watching a thriller TV series. I stayed up till 1 am, and I had to bring a flashlight to bed since I was very scared something might pop out. I kinda feel like a little kid loll.
Right now, my mom is making me two eggs and a toasted pita bread for breakfast. I am excited to eat! This morning is very peaceful, but you know what they say, "the calm before the storm".
My dad is coming home today from another country, and he's anti-vax (basically he hates the government) and you have to self-isolate in a hotel for 3 day then you can self-isolate at your house for the rest of the days or else you will get fined 6000 dollars! That's alot of money. So my dad already called and he's planning on disobeying the government by coming home right away. So not ONLY will I have to deal with him possibly bringing covid back and infecting me and my mom, but we will be fined 6000, we will have to self-quarantine for 14 days, and I will have to deal with his anger (when to be completely honest I really don't want to deal with). But, If I don't deal and help him manage help him deal with his emotions then my mother will guilt-trip me into doing it.
I hate dealing with his emotions, once he was so mad he got close to my rabbit and threatened to dismember it while screaming and shaking. Not only that, but my dad has a hoarding problem so he's gonna bring tons of junk into the house, then my mom is going to say "it's up to us girls to fix this mess". Like what?!?! I didn't sign up for this shit, take me off the fucking list, I'm not helping. And finally with all of this that's going on I'm suppose to be his cute little happy dad awaiting for his arrival.
I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm tired.
I'm not happy, I'm mad. No I'm furious. But I'm also scared. I'm so so so so so so so so so so so sos so so scared. I don't know what to do. Nothing is going to happen to me if I keep my shit together, but will I be able to? Fun Fact, I'm crying right now.
That's all I have to saying today. Alright bye my fams.