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2021-07-13 21:43:04 (UTC)

Just be honest, I do know

‎Tuesday, ‎July ‎13, ‎2021

Old Mans Room

Ever since I retired, I have been open and honest all the way. No more of these so called little white/black lie's, or fibbing, what he doesn't know will not hurt him and so on. Ok, when I was working, I had no choice in the work that I did if I wanted to continue to work. I did lie for the employer in order to feed my family at the time, When I divorced and my kids were adults, I even still lied or didn't tell the full truth for many many reasons at that time. Sometimes, and I don't care who you are, and be a god even your not going to tell the full truth. I have never met a clergy person that did not fib, or lie in order not to hurt some one else's feeling for whatever reason. The point is they all lie, no matter who it is. Preachers do nothing but tell you the Gospel and let me tell you a lot of it is lie's, but you don't dare say that in fear of being ousted from that church or group.
Why my stories are so long as I lead into a lot of things so the reader can understand from the beginning not to ask, if you don't want to know the truth. Since no longer having to serve the public or even respect those that I did not like when working, I lied to keep their business.
Today, I did more than I ever thought. Not much to others that read this, but for someone 75, it is a lot. For the first time since last year, I went into a Walmart and did some shopping of my own. Just enough that I knew I could carry from the car into my room. I normally order my foods and things by way of courier, Amazon, or pick it up with Walmart employees loading what I order into the trunk. I order a few cases of coke zero every month or so. Can't even lift a case myself any longer. But, I did not see any shelves bare, or items missing that I even could think of at the time as I could find everything that I wanted. Wanted to yell as to some prices of name brand stuff, but whatever their were cheaper brands and they taste the same just cheaper. Name brands I can see folding , if they don't keep pace with some off brand markets. Nothing what so ever showed me that were going to be having a shortage soon as the media seems to be saying every so often. Hell, everyone knows I never wore a mask except to my doctors appointments. No choice if I want to see how I am doing. But, seen maybe a few and if that even wearing masts. Everyone I seen any place not wearing a mask. The stores of course all of them have required masks to enter here. But, signs have always been placed up and many people never paid attention to them, so why even now in the flu season?
Even if I go into a place to sit down and have a good meal, I still not asked to put on a mask, and everyone else as well had no mask on. A few had some dangling from their necks, and those were people that just in case required, once in their dangling around their neck.
Now the VA clinic is different, you need to remember especially the officers that use to be high power people and you did as told no matter what. Well, I did have one when he walked bye me tell me to put on my mask as it's required, as soon as he walked by, as if he thought I would do as asked and probably seen me reaching down to do so, but did not. Still those type of power dead brain types still thinking they can tell anyone what to do and always will be. Hell, I sit in the waiting room with it covering my mouth only until time for weight and blood pressure and temp bullshit then I fully cover. Once inside doctors office even doctor of mine doesn't wear one and I take my off as well.
But, in reality I see nothing but bs being told to people as to deaths. No, deaths happen but not from this damn flu
Now, my kid, a man and married as well as adult kids himself, but calls for to borrow money until his payday. No biggie as I charge a few dollars depending on the amount he wants to borrow. After all I need to make money when My money is out of my account and a way to make it grow as well help me make payments I also owe.
This has been going on for a while now, and finally was able to put together why he is doing what he is doing. Someone that earns over two thousand a week, not a month, a week does have a different life style than a retired out fark like me. Then I earned as well his age and did good as well. Today I almost have to wheel and deal with those selling things at my price and payments to make till I die. Never will get what I want and use till death. Unless damn lucky again. Even told my kids and grand kids they better die before me, as I sure as hell not leaving any money maybe a few bucks they will be able to find if they look hard enough.
My kid said he was going to visit someone in another area. My granddaughter, and I said why driving all that far on a work day. Since it's only Tuesday at that. Just to see how everyone is doing and just want to. Well, I would like to see my grand kids as well as great grandkids, but not going to drive just to see them. Feel if they want to see granddad or grandfather, their younger than I am and come and see me for a few minutes. Hell, my grandparents never came to see me, I had to go see them. I had great grandparents as they always let me and wife stay for awhile. My parents had a hard time so we lived their in that two bedroom house for months at a time when My dad was in the service and my mom well her parents were the grandparents I knew. Now, their kid My uncle, he was a paperboy and sometimes took me with him, don't remember his too much as we didn't get along that well and think because he was put out of his room for my brother and I and sister, which was taken over by grandparents for certain reason. My sister was raised by my grandparents, I knew why, but we never talked about until later in the years down the road after my mom's death then my dad's death. But, my sister had a great life compared to my brother and I. We fought a lot over dumb ass stuff, who's turn to push that damn lawnmower or take out the trash. Regular things as that goes on today. Except easier as have power mowers and riding mowers now compared back then. I know we moved a lot and once we lived in Washington at my dad's brother house. Didn't like it there as always picked on by other older kids and my dad's brother was a preacher as well as a scot master. Was happy as hell when we finally moved from there and went to Oregon. Now, that was fun, but again always had more beatings than my brother over whatever took place and even if I didn't do it, I was the oldest and should not have allowed him to do it so two years different I was the beating or punching bag for my dad. I do remember getting a rifle when I was ten or eleven. I shot things a lot out of anger more than food. I felt safer with it as took it to bed all the time. Thinking I would be protected from anyone and everyone. Lucky nothing ever had to happen or I would not have lived as long as I have. Lot more to the story but you know how I am until the mood I get tired and let people hang until I decide to be reminded of something to wake people up around me.
Back to what should be short as well as simple, but memories just make me to throw things out there in hopes that the younger generation will know things are not as your taught especially today. Your told lie's daily by the media and no fault to the media, but they have to make a living as well keep others employed, so many things are told to do by this free government or your no longer in business.
Reason my son wanted to visit so he said and I warned him time and again just be honest, after all nothing I can do about it. Sure pisses me off but hell to lie never makes it even better. Yes, I sent him $50.00 for his so called pain medication that he is buying from his cousin as she takes them as well. Always knew it, but as I said wanting to be honest will bring out a lot of things that I understand should not be washed out to public. But, hey talk to me say anything and when I ask a question then avoided getting a reply, I already know the answer as well as the truth. My family still has not learned that and am catching them all the time. Of course There adults they can spend their money on what they want. But, don't tell me a lie to make me say what I already know. He did finally confess, and I said that is why I will probably outlive you even as your ruining your body because of things you refuse to get help for or just think you need it. Still waiting for pictures that I asked for over 4th of July and bedroom photos and their apartment and so on. Of course like all young people they promise and say I will in a day or two, but will remind them again in a week or more or even a month depending on if I want to ruin their day as they did mine by telling that fib, white/black lie. Now back to a tv dinner this evening as didn't feel to great last night and done fighting with the post office over a package that should have been here days ag. will BE HERE FOR SURE TOMORROW. Amazon delivers though postal service so I started with them of course and same old bullshit the lazy postal workers (government workers) . Still best mail service compared to UPS or Fed Ex or any other fly by night mail service. Notice ow my stories already lead into even more things. Even bough gas at Walmart as cheaper than My Shell card could even offer with ten cents a gallon. That also another story of getting and paying for gas.
Strange; Jimmy one of the caretakers knocked on my door and asked if I had any trash, when I normally take it out myself since James is no longer here for sometime to come. Said no it's not full enough yet. Then asks am I alright, while sitting here at the computer. A tap tap on the bedroom door and had no midea who it was. Most everyone knows, but as I said since getting tired of the care takers blame everyone else and not us because this place is so old anyways. But, can't stand people asking dumb ass questions if they can see I am doing something. I must be alright? All right? Guess something like hi how are you doing. Reply would be just as nasty back, fine, why do you care etc. I am sure you get the meaning. Hell first time in seven years I have seen the caretakers as much as I have this past week. Wonder what part of I don't like people they don't understand? Oh well, now back to a tv dinner, 36 oz coke zero and not sure what tv dinner then a movie and who knows what after all only six oclock.‎7/‎13/‎2021

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