The little ambivert

Diary of the little ambivert
2021-07-05 10:18:24 (UTC)


Since yesterday, I can’t seem to shake this feeling of uneasiness. I am a little bit scared, it’s been long I felt like this and even when felt like this, it was gone before the end of the day. I don’t know the reason I am feeling this way. It’s as if I should expect the worst but the worst in what? I feel it might be my result. It’s a big thing you know. It’s the determining factor of this last 7 years of my life, and I’m scared, what if I don’t pass well or worse, what if I fail? For the past 2 months I have been quite confident about the result. Maybe it’s because I never wanted to think about it. I know that I am quite intelligent and smart but I doubt if I am a “first-class material”. And I was almost too sure that at least I would make a second class upper. Now? I am not really sure of anything. I have been hearing stories of how law school result can f*ck you up. Now, other people’s fear and paranoia have started rubbing off on me.
I wish I could stand strong. I wish this feeling of uneasiness will leave me. But my faith is failing me. I just have to leave it all to God as I await my fate on Tuesday. Until then, God willing, I’ll try to be happy.