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Life through my spiritual eyes❤️
2021-06-21 08:40:48 (UTC)

I am always with you ❤️

“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day.” (Gosh I loved that movie, The Notebook)
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Good Morning!☀️
It is kind of a sunny/rainy day. It stormed all night. I am feeling highly emotional but so calm today. Sounds contradictory but true lol. I had the most beautiful dream last night. I shouldn't really say dream as it was more a gift. Well, a backstory is needed. Yesterday when I went to the cemetery to see my Dad, I placed a single rose on another grave, my fiances. My first true love, which I lost tragically many many years ago. I told him I missed him and I wish I could still feel him with me. That night, last night, I had a very vivid dream. I was in a field with him. It was a soccer field that we had spent a lot of time in during our high school years. My fiance was a jock. He played football and soccer for our school. We were inseparable. We made the yearbook as the most likely couple to marry. We had all plans on it. Anyways, We were sitting in the middle of the field and we were talking about our memories together. Some I had forgotten, he reminded me of. I was telling him how I missed him and asked him why I couldn't feel him with me and he laughed and said "Angel, I am always with you" (Angel was what he always called me) and I started to cry. He held me and omg it brought back a flood of memories and emotions. He told me he was proud of me and whenever I thought of him, He's right there. He told me to let myself love again and that I will find a love I deserve. One part utterly shocked me this morning when I was recalling my dream, He said "don't settle for less than the hearts and flowers".Thing is, I mentioned to my girlfriend M not even a week ago, I wanted hearts and flowers type of love. I don't remember where it ended off and I don't remember every detail but the parts I do, I will hold with me forever. I still feel his arms around me and how comforted I felt. I woke to a drenched pillow lol. I can honestly say it was the most surreal dream of my life. I don't know whether it was truly a dream my mind created or a true gift from him in the form of a dream. I will talk to my girlfriend M later. What did surprise me is when I woke this morning and headed out for my run. I opened my phone and the first picture I saw was a quote on my Facebook from a quotes group I follow that said "I am always with you" and it had a red cardinal on a branch in the winter. Talk about freaky lol I know communication can come in the form of dreams and I truly believe it was. It just seems too perfectly timed after yesterday's cemetery visit. I question if I subconsciously dreamt it. Either way, it's a gift. I woke this morning and dug through my jewelry box and found the ring he gave me and I put it on a necklace and around my neck.

I feel calm, at peace. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted from me (aside from work haha) I feel at peace for the first time in a long time. I feel happy. This dream or gift, whichever it was, changed my perspective, changed my life. Thank you Baby ❤️

Today? work, tomorrow off, yay! I am seeing N today after work for a bit. Go with the flow as M said haha. I just need to get through work. I pray it is quiet. It should be, Mondays are not usually that bad.

I need to get ready!

Have a wonderful day!❤️




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