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Through the Looking-Glass
2021-06-16 17:58:02 (UTC)

Come to, Mistress you sexy cunt

More thinking is needed, more decisions to be made, and I find myself plucking and picking from an endless stream of men.

How marvellous it is to talk to men of all walks of life and converse with different minds with diverse outlooks and intentions. I cannot deny it is wholesomely fun. I had never seen myself in the way others do, I fleetingly pop into my old way of life and think how I felt back then, utterly under the grips of a narcissist without a clue what a narcissist even was. I cannot recall the exact pinpoint of where the revelation was found of what he was, but everything has its reasons. They say you have three profound relationships in your life that out shadow any others. The first, your first love. The second, the lesson. The third the true love. I am approaching my third if that had any foundation to it. However, I think differently.

So, I guess the strength and renewal of my entire self is attracting men that compliment this in different ways. It only comes down to my choices now. As it stands, I now have another male submissive. He is nothing like the deranged sergeant. He is my domestic sub, cleaning my house, worshipping my body. Sounds ridiculous; I know it does! It really does, but what can I say? In his daily life (career), the man is not weak; he holds a dominant role, and his secret side is to submit to a woman. He hasn't any depraved fantasies; he doesn't want a man inside him, neither cuckolding. He is proving himself to me, and it's what he enjoys. Attractive, younger than me only a little, lives alone, no children. Ultra sultry voice and very open and communicative. He sent me some voice notes, with one of them he was telling me how much he adores me and will honour all I ask of him. I sent that voice note to Adonis, Ed and Phil :)

Phil and Ed laughed, but I know I will hear more from Ed on this. I know him, he will want to learn more. Adonis says he isn't jealous, yet he is sadistic, not heavily; When I get cunty, he relishes in it loves the high tempo wordplay fuckery, I do too. It turns us on. He is also romantic, loving and says he has no problem with my sub. We shall see. See how he manages it when he is with me in the same room and my sub. It should be interesting, and plans are already being arranged, but first, I will meet Adonis alone, even a few times before he meets my sub. LOL, he'll most likely be cleaning my house anyway when he meets him and serving our drinks :)) It's what he loves to do, and I think people should follow what they love to do. I'll keep him with me at the right times and away from my daughter's presence, so my private life has no bearing upon her. She is the most important above all else.

There is more news on the others.
The scaffolder messaged me again, I decided its fairer to make things clear, and I did, politely and he said, "I'm gutted, we got on really well", but to be fair, he should have thought about that before showed a different side of himself that didn't sit well with me, and that's fine if he has these ways, but it's not for me. I would rather not waste my time.

Kenty, who lives nearby who arranged a date with me this weekend, is still on. I do have Adonis proving himself stable and more than interested, and my sub. But kenty has a lot of depth, and I'm intrigued by him. I'll see how our conversations go the rest of the week.

The guy who I felt a familiarity, as in, felt I knew him already. Is fkn mental loony crazy, LOL...I've told the man a few times now, "Be on your way", etc., but he is persisting and asking random odd questions. Yes, obviously someone playing the little boy game there...man-child.

Another guy called Matt is a scientist.....God love science! He is sexy! And all our conversations so far have been about space, illusions, religions, other worlds, etc. He is interesting. I like him; not many men can talk about those things like he does; I like that. He is very clever and open-minded.

Sent dad off two handcrafted fathers day cards I made for him and £15 worth of scratch cards. I hope he wins on them. He deserves it.

Phil broke it off with his 22-year-old virgin woman; I always told him he needs someone his own age, with life experience like him. He has a few ladies on chitchat on Facebook dating. It's funny because we're ringing each other often going over new people, things they said, we said, what happened, haha.....I ask him man questions, and he asks me woman questions.

A woman on one of my dating apps messaged me, asking me, "What are you looking for?" Guess she wants some lesbo fun.

It's weird writing about this tacky stuff while I'm playing Ludovico Einaudi in the background. It's making me melancholy, and yet, there is zero place for it here, LOL—weird combination.




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