After my ex cheated on me I wasn't the same.
I just changed, when he cheated it was just the last thing that happened to me the last thing that broke me.
I did stuff with a married man after that kept flirting with other people's boyfriends, it's like I hate that others get to be happy that they get their partners and I'm all alone how I got hurt and somehow they got spared in happy relationships so when their partners hit on me its like I want to prove to myself that what others have is a lie and the way to prove that is by sleeping with them.
It's wrong and I've stopped for the most part.
Im lonely but I don't want a relationship. I'm just really lonely and sad on the inside.