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Lost

I feel so lost. It feels like nothing is happening, everything is vain. The time I'm investing in everything is vain waste but i just cant sit and wait i have to make a move.
All are switching jobs they getting good jobs, getting married, studying, getting promoted. why am I the one who is failing at everything. why???
I met R but as his life is messed up he doesn't want to mingle uffff such a waste of time, but we are good friends we share our thoughts, we take a lot about life and also we try to uplift each others spirit. we never spoke about life in a non platonic way though.
exploring time with G, havnt felt the strong connection yet but he is an elegible match.