Life through my spiritual eyes❤️
Sometimes you meet someone ❤️
Listening to: Save your tears - The Weeknd (addicted to this song)
“Sometimes you meet a person and you just click--you're comfortable with them like you've known them your whole life and you don't have to pretend to be anyone or anything. Don't let them go!”
Soooo it looks like I am home alone all weekend lol. I am kinda enjoying this! lol. I am thinking of doing something outside my comfort zone tonight lol. We shall see.
Last night my best friend E came over and we had a few drinks and just talked. We sat outside until darkness hit and then came inside and talked more. He's such an amazing person/friend. I am so blessed to have him in my life. While the drinks were flowing. We got on the topic of relationships and "the perfect person" for us. He said he wanted someone exactly like me. Kinda took me off-guard. I choked on my wine and said pardon? He started telling me how I set a high bar and how so many he dates don't come close to the person I am. The heart I have. I have been so down on myself so hearing that, made me cry, made me feel special. He said he said you are easy to love but he could never risk our friendship by wanting more. I honestly never thought of E that way. As kids, sure, we messed around a little but it always took us back to our friendship. We never messed around or even hinted at it as adults. We have been solid, best friends all our life. As an adult, I never thought of him that way as I had assumed he felt the same. He asked me not to say anything after that and we awkwardly switched to another subject, within a few minutes we were back to laughing and having a good evening. He ended up leaving around 12:30. E is the ideal man. He's gorgeous, super sweet, smart, accomplished. He's a detective with our local police dept. He's is quite muscular and has women all over him so to think he feels that way about me makes me feel good but makes me a bit uncomfortable. I don't know that I could ever feel that way about him but I am glad he said he did not want to risk our friendship because I can't/won't risk our friendship. He means too much to me and I have experienced the hurt from a best friend relationship end. It sucks and I can't, not have E in my life. I do know more won't happen. I love him, just not that way. My heart is also still in the past. He messaged me this morning as if nothing was said. It was our usual chat lol. It's funny how we can bounce right back, some friendships just do.
What's on the agenda for today? Running around to the gardens for plants and then off to the beach for a bit, then seeing my girlfriend who's moving here today! Her truck will be here around 3:30pm so she wants me to meet her there. I am so so excited to have her close. I need this type of friendship. We connect on so many levels as women. We share spirituality and beliefs and she is an old soul, like me. It will be good for me I think. I have lived so much in a small bubble. I am proud of myself for venturing out of that and making new friends. My life seems so different from years ago, even months ago. I am still me and I am happy with that.
I need to go take this towel off my head and get ready!
Have a wonderful day all!❤️