TM49

My History Of Familial Incest
2021-05-27 20:47:57 (UTC)

Birthday weekend

My state is going mask free and joining the other states, which means I am headed back to my gym next week. I need to go back. It's been to long and I feel like a weakling but it's the only way I am going to get strong again. This time around I have this aging body fighting me tooth and nail but it's still worth it. I want the strength back that I had before. I also want the toning and overall better looking body. Middle aged and sexy not middle age and frumpy. I still might end up frumpy but I'll give it another shot.
HIM has asked me to make time for him so I think he has something special planned. Last year he ignored my birthday and it ticked me off but I think my letting him know that made him doubly sure not to forget this year lol. The first year of knowing him he gave me the most intense eargasm. I still remember it. One of the best ones with him out of the many. I wish we could spend it in person but got to do what we can now.
Things are going cautiously good...which of course makes me mildly nervous. I realize how negative that sounds but it's hard for me to trust good things. I've been burned so many times. Hope is scary in my world. I can deal with the rest, but the possibilities of life being good is the tricky part. I'm in an alright place monetarily. Could be better but most people can say that. I know that the 3 year anniversary is coming up and I'm trying to face it the best I can. I know this time every year is also going to take me back but hopefully it will get easier to handle.
My weekly flirt with the CC guy was funny. I told him my bday was coming up and to guess how old I was. He said 29. I laughed and told him be for real. He smiled and asked me and I told him ( lets say 40-something :)) and he grinned. Bad boy. He said he will wish me happy bday online. That might be his IN to start a chat. We will see.
-TM




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