Echo

C'est La Vie
2021-05-23 21:03:51 (UTC)

The things I'd do, if I could do them.

Today emotionally wrecked me, I watched a documentary on my condition (POTS) and it hurt to see so many other people struggling the way I do, some who are even worse. It really does rip your life away. But, the four individuals featured make progress overtime. One became a photographer, one finally rode a horse again after 5 years, one got married, another got married and had a child.

That's why I need to hold on to hope. If I ever get better, I will first have a beer. But then I will set out and do the things I want to do, life can be ripped away so easily. Illness gives you a new perspective when you're no longer the one in the driver seat. Suddenly you don't have the option to "postpone" plans, and the things you once stressed about so greatly seem insignificant. What I wouldn't do just to have another boring day at work, or sit in line at a grocery store. I'm sure it seems hard to believe, and I wouldn't have myself if I hadn't become sick. I'm grateful for what I do have left, and the people who have stuck by me. There is not all the time in world like they say. Things can change instantaneously.




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