Lost Soul

~This Crazy Life Of Mine~
2021-05-23 07:56:02 (UTC)

Regret, pain, hurt

It's been a rollercoaster of things lately. I'm NOT okay. I hurt, ALL THE TIME! I'm the one who ran away from my marriage. I'm the one who broke it. I'm the one who allowed another person to come in between it. I want to run away from everything. Delete everything and just forget. I should've known better.... I've fucked everything up. I've bettered myself sure but was doing that, worth losing everything I've had. Everything I built with the one person I swore I'd never leave?! What the fuck is wrong with me?! I'm just so sad. My house is a mess. My emotions are all over the place and my heart is hurting.... Soooooo bad. And I wish I could fix it. I never should've done this. I've lost everything and feel like I've gained nothing. (That statement isn't completely true cuz I've gained things that will help me long term) UGH! I don't wanna feel like this anymore... What the fuck do I do. Where the fuck do I go. I have nothing. I'm scared to be alone too. What a mess. When am I going to learn!?




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