Canadian Cutie

Life through my spiritual eyes❤️
2021-05-22 12:57:18 (UTC)

At the cottage❤️

Good Afternoon☀️

No music playing, no quotes lol, not like me I know haha. I am up at my cottage. It's beautiful and oh so quiet. They are off boating and fishing, I am just sitting on my dock staring out at the water so thought I would write.

I am struggling today, deeply. I am on the verge of tears all day and cannot seem to shake it. My anxiety is high and it shouldn't be. I am at my cottage, my safe haven but I am struggling. I noticed it initially started when I watched a video about how the govt is bartering our freedom for vaccines. They will open things IF we meet vaccine percentages. There were videos of people begging and pleading to open things and how mental health is struggling. I then saw a hockey game where the stadium was full and nobody was wearing a mask. It reminded me of how things use to be compared to how they are now. It's thinking how much life has changed in the last year and a half. Every aspect of our lives has been affected in some way over this. There are just so many factors as to why I am feeling this way and I am overwhelmed. I also had a few bad dreams last night. So I am sure that's not helping too. I know all this will subside and life will return to my normal happy self, but I am acknowledging my sadness and giving it a voice. My uncle moved the desk over to his place today and that brought a little sadness as it was bought for a life here at the cottage I had planned. Makes me sad how someone who was a huge part of my life chose in an instant to be just a memory. You can never predict life's changes.

If nothing else this past year and a half, I have learned life is short. Fight for what you want, fight hard. Don't hold grudges, most importantly don't waste time. Life is too fucking short. Live life and find happiness in even the simplest little things but don't ignore the days or times you struggle because it is important to experience the bad to appreciate the good.

Anyways, I am going to do some gardening here.

I hope you all have an amazing day!❤️