Life through my spiritual eyes❤️
She was always a strong-willed girl, taking no crap, being the strong one for everyone. That was the role she took on all her life happily. It was part of her makeup. She knew no other way to be. Yet, what was behind all that strong exterior? A fragile delicate soul that questioned everything, over-thought what someone said and how they said it. She was smart and confident, yet not full of herself. Confident, but had so many dancing insecurities within her. Insecurities that were unfounded, but needed reassuring every once in a while. Trauma does that to a person. There will be times he will saying things to reassure her and make her smile. Sometimes out of the blue which will just make her beam. Other times, she will just outright asked him. Not because she doesn't know the answer, but simply because she just wants to hear it. Hearing him say how he feels about her and things within the confines of their relationship makes her smile, feel loved, and secure. She can be feeling insecure and uneasy because of her own overthinking one minute, and then totally reassured and at ease in the next- just from a few simple words from him. Sometimes he may even feel it from afar while he is at work. He just feels something. He knows. She doesn't even have to say a word. Other times, she will ask for that little reassurance by asking 'Miss me? How much? Love me immensely? What will you do to me next time you see me?' Answers he will happily give her quickly and easily because they were all true. All deep within him. She will know that. She knows his feelings, emotions, wants, and desires. But to a woman, knowing and feeling it is one thing. Hearing the spoken words is another. Every now and then we need to hear it. Some girls, like her, need to hear things more often due to traumatic events and losses in life that broke her. Those things really take a toll on your thoughts and emotions, and you need more reassurance than the average girl. And that's okay. She thought it made her weak asking certain questions for reassurance from him. But she's learning it's not weak. It's strong because you know what you need emotionally and asking for it. You know yourself and you're respecting your emotional needs. You're self-aware. That's strength through all the trauma. Asking for help, asking for reassurance from the one you love with everything you encompass- is raw honest communication. He doesn't view her as weak at all when she asks him. He views her as the strong woman he loves and adores, going through something emotionally hard, and will always pull her out of her dark spots when she asks or not. He's her safe place of no judgments, just love. She wants someone who understands her like this and loves her even more because of it.