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Steph
2021-05-10 20:41:41 (UTC)

Struggle of a day

Today I saw my boyfriend witch I loved , but could only spend 2 hours with him , he dosnt realise how much he truly means to me , he helps me so so much, I struggle with my emotions again today specially when having the feed , I self inflict pain to get the pain in my head away , it normally helps calm me down but it happened 3 times today 😔 I don't no what I want anymore I'm confused and lost , but on the positive side I get to see my boyfriend again in 11 days ! Hopefully have a long weekend with him , I tried to go for lunch today I made it to the dining room and cried and cried so got sent back upstairs the thought of food scares me ,the salad looked huge I couldn't deal with it ,the milk as well just remins me when I would throw up . My head is just so messed up at the moment and I just don't no what else I can do .




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