Life through my spiritual eyes❤️
Not every day is a good day❤️
Listening to: Collide - Howie Day
~Empaths did not come into this world to be victims. We came to be warriors, be brave, stay strong. We need all hands on deck~
It's a dreary rainy day here, cuddle in with a blanket kinda day but I have things to do. I already dropped my car off for an oil change and tire rotation. It should be done soon.
I did workout today and tried to give it my all but I did not sleep well last night. I had a bad dream. It was about a family member who is no longer here. Someone in my life who caused me a lot of pain. Because of this, today is not a good day. As an empath, we are known for having more vivid dreams than the average dreamer. It is a common complaint of empaths to struggle with vivid dreams that cause intense fearful emotions, which are referred to as a nightmare or night terror. This can often lead to interrupted sleep, which impacts a person’s quality of life. Today is one of those days. I am emotionally and mentally drained. You may wonder why do empaths struggle more with nightmares and night terrors than non-empaths?. Empaths have a tendency to take on other people’s emotions and treat them as if they were their own. Because of this, the subconscious has to work overtime to sort through the empath’s emotions, as well as all the other emotions they held onto. A lot of this external energy includes problems that they have tried to solve for other people. This foreign energy is interpreted as an invader or threatening in some way, so it appears in the dream state as a nightmare.
So with this said, my nightmare was surrounding the struggle my family member had with mental health and the part I played in their life. As a child, I was abused. As an adult, I took care of them (until they passed), from a distance, to protect myself. This dream, I was doing it all over and living through the abuse from my childhood and their mental health. It was like my whole life relived in my short sleep and woke in tears, feeling so sad and like the little girl once again.
All that said, I would not trade being an empath as it's a gift. To feel so deeply. Empaths can connect to others on a deeper level that goes beyond logic and words. I love that type of connection with others in my life despite it not always being positive. I love helping people and being calm in their storms. I understand not all days are good days and that's ok. I apologize if this entry is a little all over the place. My mind is mush and I am struggling a bit today.
So today? A self-care day, taking care of me and doing things I enjoy, and turning out the outside world. We all need that.
I hope you have a wonderful day!❤️